I am Outside
The Fleets Lyrics

I am all that I need
I am self-sufficient

And I'll be till I'm through
I'll always be enough for myself

And I'm light on my feet
I'm carefree and unburdened

Good to be without you
It feels good to be on my own

Distant light, distant dancer
There's a faraway light and dancer that seems unreachable

Mute at midnight she might look like the answer
At midnight, the unreachable figure might seem like the solution to my problems

But I'm all that I need
But I'm self-sufficient and don't need anyone else

So it's true, I've gone too far to find you
It's true that I've gone too far to locate you

And the thumbprint scar I let define you
The scar on your thumb that I allowed to define you

Was a myth I made you measure up to
It was a myth I created and expected you to live up to

It was all just water, winding by you
It was all just a passing thing, like water flowing by you

And the basking, gnashing, foaling, feeding
All the indulgences that we engage in

And the rising, falling, melting, freezing
All the ups and downs of life

And the raising for destroying feeling
The feeling of building something up just to tear it down

(All we do, this repeats)
Our actions are cyclical and repetitive

You've got all you need on me
You have all the power you need over me

And now I see that it's all corroding
And now I realize that everything is falling apart

Soonest seething, soonest folding
The anger and frustration will soon lead to destruction

But the night won't last if you just hold fast, so calm down
The difficult times will pass if you can stay strong and calm

(I'm hardly made of steel)
(I'm not invincible)

Tell me, are you so concealed?
Are you hiding something from me?

(Can't I just go to sleep?)
(Can't I just forget about everything and sleep?)

You're no more so blind to me
I can see through your lies and deceptions now

Are you alone?
Are you by yourself?

I don't believe you
I don't think you're being honest

Are you at home, I'll come right now
If you're at home, I'll come see you immediately

I need to see you
I have an urgent need to see you

Thin as a shim and Scottish pale
Very thin and pale like a typical Scottish person

Bright white light like a bridal veil
Very bright and shining like a bridal veil

"I don't need you"
"I don't require your help or support"

Cut to chewed through finger nails
Fingernails that have been bitten down to the quick

I was a child in the ivy then
I was young and naive then

I never knew you, you knew me
I never truly knew you, but you knew me well

Not like you knew me
But not as well as you thought you did

Off on the other ocean now
Now I'm far away, out on the ocean

All is behind you, all is sea
Everything that has happened in the past is behind you, and all you can see is water