A piano player since the age of 4, Ai Otsuka started composition and songwriting at the age of 15. Her music ranges from upbeat catchy pop/rock music that can be heard in tracks like "Happy Days" and "さくらんぼ" to touching ballads like "大好きだよ。" and "甘えんぼ". Several of her songs have also been used as theme songs, such as Planetarium in Hana Yori Dango, Cherish in Love for Nana, and フレンズ and ユメクイ for the Tokyo Friends drama and movie respectively (which she starred in).
She studied to go to Osaka University, and her highest level of education is junior college. She has stated in the past that when her music career ends, she'll teach kindergarten (which she has a license to).
人形
大塚愛 Lyrics
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あたしは自由を捨てた
ママが望むなら
あたしは男の子になる
身ごもった少女は 裸足でさまよい
ガラスで切れた かかと 死刑台へ
苦しみも嬉しさも感じない
あたしの表の顔から
友達がほしくて
あたしはYESだけで
ぬくもりがほしくて
あたしは男に身をあずける
もっと自分のコトを
大事にしてあげたなら
感情が生きていた
人間になれたのに
痛みも 孤独も 誰一人
助けてはくれない
あたしは都会でがんばる星に
願いを届けてみた
"人間になりたい" と
大塚愛's song "人形" (Hitomi) portrays a desire to become a "good child" at the cost of sacrificing one's freedom. The lyrics suggest that the singer is willing to become a boy if that is what her mother desires. She describes herself as a pregnant girl wandering barefoot, with glass-cut heels leading to the gallows. The pain and joy that she encounters no longer affect her, as her heart begins to die behind her outward facade. Despite longing for friends, she only responds with "yes," and in search of warmth, she entrusts herself to men. The lyrics convey a sense of regret, as the singer realizes that if she had taken better care of herself, her emotions would have remained alive, allowing her to become human. However, no one comes to her aid, leaving her to struggle alone in the city, where she sends her wishes to the striving stars.
Line by Line Meaning
いい子になりたくて
In my desire to be a good child
あたしは自由を捨てた
I gave up my freedom
ママが望むなら
If that's what Mama desires
あたしは男の子になる
I will become a boy
身ごもった少女は 裸足でさまよい
A pregnant girl wanders barefoot
ガラスで切れた かかと 死刑台へ
Her heels cut by glass, she heads to the gallows
苦しみも嬉しさも感じない
Not feeling any pain or joy
あたしの表の顔から
From the face I show to the world
心が死んでゆく
My heart is slowly dying
友達がほしくて
In my longing for friends
あたしはYESだけで
I rely solely on saying yes
ぬくもりがほしくて
In my desire for warmth
あたしは男に身をあずける
I surrender myself to a man
もっと自分のコトを
If only I had taken care of myself more
大事にしてあげたなら
If only I had valued myself
感情が生きていた
Emotions would have thrived
人間になれたのに
Then I could have become human
痛みも 孤独も 誰一人
No one will save me from pain and loneliness
助けてはくれない
No one will come to my aid
あたしは都会でがんばる星に
I will become a determined star in the city
願いを届けてみた
I tried to deliver my wish
"人間になりたい" と
To become human
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= ω = / lilacu.
omg Latias chan your voice <33 It suits this song so much ! so soothing I think I could sleep with this >A<
Latias
+【＝ω＝】＠ 歌ってみた Ahhhh thank you so much ////
miu
You sang this so wonderfully! ♥ We also love the same Otsuka Ai songs; the live piano version of Himawari is amazing. xD But, yes! It's always lovely to hear you. :)
miu
Oh gosh! Wow, I'm so glad that introduced you to her music! ( ; v ; ) Another gorgeous song is Hoshikuzu, if you haven't heard it yet!
Latias
+美羽 Ahhhhhh thank you so much!!
I'm so glad you comented. I discovered this song and Ai Otsuka thanks to you, when I listened to your cover of Ninyou like three years ago.
IZA // 124
aah this sounds amazing! me encanta el sonido de tu voz <3
Latias
+♚ιʐa♚ muchas gracias! ♥
KIMI oops
Your voice is so lovely and soft/// fits the song so well
KIMI oops
+「♪Latias」 no problem!!! ♡
Latias
+Kimi Ahhhhh thank you so much!! ///v///